Friends...

Does anyone just stop and think about their lives and examine what makes them interesting and worth living?? Well lately I have been doing alot of self reflection and realized that I would not be able to do anything without the help of my friends. It was once said that a friend is a single soul dwelling in two bodies. Well, I would have to say that I agree with that statement. My friends are the people that I can always count on without a doubt to be there for me be by my side through anything and everything. They are the people that I run to whenever I have a problem that I don't think I can face on my own. My friends are my strength. Whenever I feel that I am not strong enough to pull through difficult times they are right there to catch me and hold me up. They are my voice when I can't speak and my air when I cant breathe. I know that I can go to them with anything and they will listen and guide me through. You cant go through life alone, you will never make it. The world is an extremely difficult place to live and you can't do it on your own... it's impossible!! I know because I have tried to handle everything by myself and it just cant be done.. At some point you have to let somebody help you out..Everyone needs to lean on someone else for a little while.. For example, I have this best friend, Marie, who I know I can call 24/7 when I'm feeling overwhelmed and upset. She always has a way to calm me down. This week when I got really upset, she came over my house and we baked cookies and brownies to help settle my nerves. Although, it didn't exactly work, she always gives 100 percent effort. I really couldn't imagine my life without Marie!! I need her and am so glad, blessed, thankful and most of all lucky to have her as a friend. In my opinion our friends are the most important influence in our lives, they not only teach us things that our parents can't but they most importantly teach us about who we really are as people...

Waiting....Just Waiting...

Did you ever just feel like you are waiting for something that is never going to come?? I'm not talking about something you ordered off of the internet that either got lost in the mail or is just taking a year and a half to actually show up at your house. But something less tangable. I just feel like I'm waiting around for my life to start. I know what everyone keeps telling me that "I'm in college now and I have so many wonderful opportunities waiting for me". Am I blinded?? Where are they?? Every chance that I have seen so far, I have taken but somehow a door was slamed shut in my face. I don't know after a while you find youself asking "is it me?? What can I possibly be doing that is so wrong??" I seriously sat down the other day and tried to figure out what was going on and i couldn't really come to any definite conclusion. I guess what I have to keep telling myself is that its not all me. Like for example, when your friends bail out on you when they are supposed to be there for you... well thats not my fault and when people don't know how to act their own age and instead act their shoe size... well again thats not my fault. I just keep asking myself " when is all of this going to end"? When will I finally be happy with my life... I'm not trying to say that my life is so horrible because it's not.. I mean i'm healthy, I have a great family, I go to a great school, and I'm sure everything will work itself out in due time...but for the meantime it is just extremely frustrating to have to wait. Everytime I hear that old saying "Good things come to those who wait" I can't help but close my eyes and wish that it's true. I'm ready for a little good news!!!

Don't You Just Love Valentines Day!!!!

I remember when I was a little girl every Valentines Day, my father would come home from work with a big chocolate heart and a teddy bear for me and tell me that I was his little Valentine...I guess since I am his only daughter he wanted to make that a special day. I developed a certain definition of what I thought Valentines day was. I believed it was a very special day in which people would take the time out of their busy lives to show those around them that they love and appreciate them. As I grew older, my definition of Valentines Day changed a little bit... After a wonderful relationship ended, this definition gained a more negative connotation. I started to think of it as a day for card, candy, and stuffed animal companies as well as restaurants and other attractions to make more money. I guess you can say it became a kind of cynical and depressing day for me... After about about two years, I have finally been able to restore my old meaning of what Valentines day really is because if you sit back and look at how people act towards each other on this Day, you will see that people are nicer and more civil to each other. They might even shock you and go out of their way just to make you smile and feel happy. On a very positive note, through it all, every year without fail, my dad is right on target with his chocolate heart and teddy bear... I started out enjoying Valentines Day, went through a rocky patch, and now am back to enjoying the day. Thanks to the help of my father I am able to have a very nice Valentines Day every single year.. I guess when they say that a daughter is always Daddy's little girl.. they were right!!! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!

Life is A Funny Thing.....

Did you ever really stop to think about what life is really about?? Well, this week sure did make me stop and think!! I just feel extremely overwhelmed between my classes, my job, afterschool activities, and everything else that could possibly happen. I just don't know where to begin... I just feel that I am one person and there is no way that I could possibly split myself in have or in my case sixths and sevenths... I just feel almost trapped in my own life.. kind of like a strange movie in which the main character is watching herself and her own life pass her by from an outside window.. I feel almost like a helpless little puppy in a way, in the sense that my life is just spinning out of control and i cant do anything to stop it!! I guess a good word to describe what I am feeling right now would be EXTREMELY MISERABLE!!! Everything in my life right now is just really bad timing... I cannot wait until this semester is over because right now i don't even recognize myself and can't wait until I can go back to feeling like me again!! I just want, i guess what everyone else wants... just to be happy... I feel like I'm waiting for something that is never going to come.. kind of like some Divine Intervention or something.. I guess for now I'm going to have to take it day by day, paper by paper, test by test, and step by step. I'm sure things will get better... Well at least I hope they will..

Just One of Those Days........

Today was just one of those days....ehhh.. The minute you open your eyes as your alarm clock is going off in your ear you feel the negative power and think to yourself "oh boy today is going to be brutal should i even bother to get up??". As usual you do anyway.. and what happens??.. More like what doesnt happen!! One thing after the other!! Like today for example, I woke up late because my alarm never went off (or it did and I either ignored it or just didnt hear it), which than made me get out of the shower and leave the house late... which of course led to me just making it into my first class of the morning by the skin of my teeth. After that little disaster of the morning.. everytime I tried to go and get my ashes, i had just missed the service and couldnt wait for another one because I always had a class to run off to. Speaking of classes, my teachers just keep piling up the work.. Anyway after my last class of the day, I tried once again to go get my ashes since I had a few minutes before I had to run off to work. But what happened?? Im sure that its no surprise to you that I couldnt get them because there was now a real mass with the giving of the ashes at the end instead of a short service..and I didnt have an hour to spare.. I had to go to work!! So anyway I get to work and my boss has me running around like a lost puppy for almost an hour and a half straight.. When I finally got a chance to sit at my desk and breathe for a minute.. my boss brings a priest in asking if I want ashes because he knows that I'm Catholic and I had told him about my entire day running around my campus looking to get my ashes... haha..That was really the highlight of my day.. I know.. thats sad..Well the my black cloud doesnt end there...After a long day at work, it was time for me to go home.. As I was walking out of my office my cellphone fell out of my pocket and scattered into 4 pieces on the floor!!!! I was so upset/angry that i just froze in disbelief and found myself wondering if I'm awake or if this is a scary dream.. My boss came out of his office and helped me piece my phone back together but we couldnt get it to work... o well this wouldnt be the first time my day has ended with a trip to the AT&T store...(but that is another story).. Well anyway I guess I just know for next time.. that when I wake up with that same negative feeling... just go back to bed and dont bother with that day.....hahaha

Superbowl 42... What a game!!!..........

I believe it's safe to say that almost everyone on Sunday evening was glued to their television sets watching the Superbowl 42. I know I was!! The game was an exciting nailbiter from start to finish... not only because many people lost alot of money in pools and bets (sad to report that i didn't win in the pool at my job ;(...but thats another story) but because the Giants played such a great game! They definately made their fans proud! Going into the game, nobody really knew who would win because the Patriots were previously undefeated but sadly ended up with an almost perfect season. In my opinion, just making it to the Superbowl is a great accomplishment that any team should be proud of, although winning it and having a perfect season is a lifetime dream so i guess it could be a little disappointing. But both teams did well and should be very proud. The Giants quarterback Eli Manning was named the MVP (most valuable player) just a year after his older brother Peyton for the Indianapolis Colts. I thought it was nice that Peyton Manning was there watching the game and supporting his little brother while he completed 19 of 34 passes for two touchdowns. Overall, it was the most exciting football game I have ever watched...although I was disappointed in the advertisements, they are usually so much better... According to Coughlin, "Every team is beatable, you never know, the right moment, the right time, every team is beatable". I am just glad that the New York Giants beat the Patriot 17-14!!!

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/02/04/sports/football/04game.html?_r=1&scp=1&sq=Superbowl+42&st=nyt&oref=slogin

Who Will Be Our Next President???

Who will the next President of The United States be?? Will it be a woman or an African American man?? For now... its anyones guess. With the Presidential Primary quickly approaching, the candidates are working hard to campaign and win as many votes as possible. In my opinion, I believe that the really interseting candidates are Senator Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama. If either of them win this election, they would be achieving a great accomplishment ( Hillary for women and Barack for African Americans because they would be the first president other than a white man). Personally, I do not think Hillary Clinton will win because she is basically just riding on her Husband's (Bill Clinton) coatails.. He is pretty much managing her entire campaign as it is. The Jewish community of the Upper West side of Manhatten seems to disagree with my opinion and find Hillary Clinton, as well as Barack Obama to be enormously appealing. So far it looks like the younger, more liberal members of this Jewish Community will lean towards voting for Barack Obama and the older more established voters will go for Senator Hillary Clinton. " I think that the Jewish vote is supporting Hillary at this point," Mr. Davidoff said. "But Obama has the buzz. And with the primary less than a week away, this is very volatile". I guess what I'm trying to say is that this election is basically anyones game. You just really can't predict what will happen in the future of this presidential election.

http://cityroom.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/02/01/clinton-obama-and-the-jews